Insane Angel

Every new beginning comes from some other beginning's end

Sunday, February 05, 2006

Mmmm February,

Car update, it will be fixed tomorrow. Yep, it took a month to go through all the silly insurance nonsense, oooh the sadness. School is getting crazy and fun, alot of work and not alot of time to do it, I've become very protective of my weekends now.

Saturdays have become the " sit around in your jammys and do nothing" day. Needless to say it is my most favorite and stinky day of the week.

I have to get up off my ass and find a place for storage because I have until April to get a truck and get my stuff from Fredericton, all I hear are cash registers going off in the distance, stupid hopes of winning the lottery.

WHY DO YOU MOCK ME SUPER 7!!

My internship goals have cjanged again. Praticality has set in. I would idealy like to go to Halifax to the CBC, it's where everything happens, and is where I would like to be. Granted I can't afford to pay for gas. It's an hour drive to Halifax from here, 2 hours of gas a day for a month = money I dont have. So logically the place I should go for the month is back home *shudder* back to the island. CBC in Sydney is small, but since it is so small, I would have a chance to do alot. Well, I'm hoping anyway.

So for the month of May I will be going back to Cape Breton, and hopfully (cross my fingers) be working in the CBC Television Station in Sydney.

Why CBC everyone is asking me. Well it is government, and I would like to see a station that our government runs. The CBC is a serious station and that's what I want to do. I want to impact peoples lives and make a difference. With my editing, I hope to accomplish that some day. From the CBC though (yes it is a launching platform for me) I hope to go across the sea to the BBC.

I want to travel, I want to take Raven and Chris and go and let them see the world with me. Chris is all for moving and I think it would be good for Raven. As soon as I finish my second year I'm going to apply. I don't know if they would take someone straight out of school, but some facilities see it as a good thing that I have not developed any "bad habits" yet in the workplace. Here's hoping.

I suppose there is another reason as well. Have you ever felt that you just want to leave and get out of here. Just go and start over. Clean Slate. New car smell and all that.

I want to go to Europe, I want to start fresh. I want to be away from all this and everyone here. I want to be with my family, just us, and get away from the drama, just breathe fresh air and be just us. Not me... my family and chris and raven.

Just us. Truly separate and on our own. Free for a bit. I mean i don't plan on living there for the rest of my life, but, hey you never know, I may fall in love with the place.

Anyway, that's the plan. I'll bring you all back a scone and a leperchaun.