Pivital Moments.

You know what I'm talking about. Those memories you have in your head that come to mind sometimes and make you smile. You're first kiss, the first time you rode your bike alone, the first time you took your parents car out to shoot the drag 10 minutes after you got your liscense.

The first, your firsts.

Not only did I experience one for myself today but I was a part of one.
Today I taught my daughter how to swim.

I remember my mom trying to teach me how to swim when I was a kid, it didn't work mind you, she can't swim. What I remember is her putting aside her fear of the water in all places Dominion beach and trying to teach her child how to swim. I did learn, years later, but I can't remember exactly when, but I do remember her trying.

Today I hope will be a memory in my daughters head like that. Of her in her fish floatie and her mom in that ugly green bathing suit. It's very odd.... something so small to many people I'd imagine, and I have such a sense of profound purpose, like I did something big today.

I'm very happy.. and calm for one split second this week, I think the calmness stuck me quite litterally with a splash of water hitting my face, as my baby paddled away from me across the pool.

I haven't cried for joy in a long time.
he-he who've thunk I'd love being a mom this much.